hey people :)
i hope you guys are really having a blast during this
long holidays!

sorry for not blogging too often although o's are over.
been really busy(playing) :P
and of course since i have so much free time on hand i've been
reading a lot!
i bought the stephanie meyer's series!
i think you would've heard about it somewhere.
TWILIGHT.NEWMOON.ECLIPSE.BREAKINGDAWN
struck a chord?
yep i'm reading.
currently done with the second book.
me and my cuz shared money to buy the series together :)
i am so crazy about edward cullen!
PLUS THE MOVIE TWILIGHT IS COMING
OUT ON 18TH OF DEC!
ah!
i love robert pattinson!
he's the lead guy in the movie and the book.
if he looks familiar to you, it's because
he was cedric diggory in harry potter's goblet of fire.
OMG HE IS SUPER HANDSOME.
way out of my league[of course] :D
but who says i can't dream??

anyway, i'm flying of to new zealand this thursday.
i was so excited about it.
but this week some stuff really discouraged me.
made me feel so UNWANTED, INSIGNIFICANT.
it really hurt. quite. a. lot. yeah.
oh well. i shan't care anymore.
DO WHATEVER BRO.

you know that irritating suffocating feeling when you wanna cry
but
you know you just can't bring yourself to?
I HATE THAT FEELING.
i really tried to deny myself and be cheerful.
i did try very very hard. till my cheeks ached from all the smiling
and my chest hurts from all the forced laughter
and all the "i'm okay :)"
but inside I AM NOT!

it feels so good to say all these stuff out.
HA.
although this week really sucked[kinda]
at least i have my good pals with me who are ever
so willing to hear me whine and blurt out all the anger and hurt.
and especially filbert.
who so willingly asked me out on a date when he knew what happened.
and shawn seet too. who asked me to go on a date again on wed.
and of course martin who comforted me and assured me that i am normal.
HAHAHAHAHA [inside joke]
i am really very encouraged by you
just CARING. it means a lot to me. :)
thank you.
boohoohoo.. i have so many great brothers in church..

really tired so i won't update any pictures.

i'll be back on the 3rd of dec.

miss me.

BYE!